We all have free will to choose our own fate but sometimes due to uncontrollable events we are left with no choices. I believe that personality is affected in many ways including both nature and nurture. Personality forms over times from the very beginning of our lives. Throughout our lifetime that personality can mold and expand. Our personality can in some cases have the potential to be altered and influenced by external events as they occur in our life. Most humans act upon certain events due to memories in the past. Our past can affect how we live and act in the present and future. Everyone is different in the sense of physical looks, opinions, and beliefs but we also share some of those beliefs and opinions with others but not everyone. At the same time, we are all a carbon copy of something else. From what we wear to what we eat to how we talk. We picked it up from someone or something else such as our culture, friends, parents, influence, etc. Physically we are all unique. No physical human body is the same. However, we allow external stimuli to influence everything else. Early civilizations main purpose in life was to survive and they did whatever they can to do that. It was an endless cycle of obtaining the basic needs of survival (food, shelter, water, clothing) and then reproducing to create the cycle all over again. Weve come a long way since then and now we live above our means and strive for more than just basic needs in our lives such as Abraham Maslow’s hierarchy of needs suggests. If we look at it that way are we just trying to seek pleasure in our lives? In a way, yes we are. As animals our only purpose in life is to survive and reproduce to keep the cycle going. But now as people who are up at the top of the food chain and the most superior beings on Earth we see life for more than just that. We see our life needs as growing, learning, following goals and dreams, and climbing to our fullest potential if we so choose. Human beings aren’t born from their mother’s womb into society as being good or evil, we are born into the world with a neutral, clean slate and our own free will decides which way we go. Everyone has all capabilities of good and everyone has all capabilities of doing evil, but we decide what capabilities we choose. Everyone has done something in our life at least once that our society, religion, morals, friends, family, constitution, government and/or laws claims is wrong. But who sets the boundaries to what is good and what is bad? What gives anyone the right to judge those? The simple answer is no one because we all have free will to do, think, speak and act in whatever way we want to.

A fresh start? July 09

So over the past few months I’ve gone through a lot of changes. I graduated from high school and soon going to be starting a new chapter in my life. I’ve made new friends and have lost some that were close to me. After years of a shitty relationship with my parents I’m trying to make it better. And I’m finally trying to get myself back together and be over all happy and healthy. Lately I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about my relationships I have with people now and ones that have ended and what I need to do to make myself happy. Today it dawned on me that everyone goes through something shitty in their lives and everyone deals with pain. I recently ended a relationship with someone that I was really close to and I’ve been pretty upset about it. But even though we’ll probably never be as close as we were or at worst never talk to each other again something good had to come out of it. I learned a lot from that relationship and have realized its not the end of the world, even though I feel like shit about it right now, in the long run it may never matter. And the beautiful thing about it is that something that was once so great could make me sad, which makes me feel that I’m alive and just maybe for every bad thing that happens something good can come out of it. I’m always going to get hurt in life but I’m still living and I should make the best out of every situation. Relationships end whether its a romance or a friendship but you still have to move on because there’s so many people out in this world who are great people I’m sure. And if the people you think are you friends don’t follow after you or stick beside you no matter what…are they really true friends in the first place?

Also, I’ve come to the conclusion that MiffCo holds nothing for me. I went to high school and did what I had to do but now its time for me to move on. The county line feels like a prison to me and I’m dying to get out. I cannot wait till I move out to Pittsburgh. A new beginning with new people and a new environment. No one has ever believed in me when I told them about my dreams and my goals for my future but I assure you that I will do whatever I can to make them a reality. I know life can be hard but I’m willing to make sacrifices to achieve my dreams. No one ever said life is easy and I know I have to work hard to get what I want out of life.

So from here on out I’m going to do what I want to make myself happy and to achieve my goals and dreams. I wasn’t placed on this earth to satisfy others and if other people can’t respect that then they aren’t worth my time.

truth and beauty are wonderful words

but shrapnel is shrapnel

and at the end of the day

i am alone with the things i have done

-anonymous

Personal Preferance 1/31/10

After listening to several opinions I wonder if I should even listen to them at all. It’s my life. Everyone’s different. Different views, opinions, etc. Is it worth risking the chance to take a friends opinion when you know deep down that’s not what your heart wants? No one can really grasp a situation unless they’re in it and know all the inner workings. If we are all different and all individuals shouldn’t we be able to make choices in life without the opinion of others. Then again, one could say everyone needs some sort of guidance in their life. This very well could be the reasons why some people see nothing wrong while others see things to be very wrong. Is it a matter of personal preference or what society expects of us? How do you fix your wrongs? Can two simple words make everything better? Is it a matter of time to let things heal or is it some sort of affirmative action? Or does it all depend on the persons involved or a certain situation? I don’t know the answers to these questions. I don’t know if anyone does know. Or is it just a matter of personal preference?